just a couple of thoughts

Since 50% of my children won't go to sleep I thought I would write a little bit about our lives these couple of weeks. I'm laying in bed cuddling with little Rebeca and Jordan's little netbook is great when it comes to typing in bed with a baby in between. It's been almost 8 weeks since we became parents for the 2nd time and I can't say it has been easy but I sure am enjoying it. Massey seems to love his little sister everyday more and more. Every morning she is the 2nd person he asks for after he calls for papi (which means daddy in spanish). I was really worried that he would be mean to her when she was first born, but he has never been mean to her. It took him about 2 weeks to get used to the idea though. He would hit me and try to bite me when I would nurse her and I just did not know how to react. But after doing some research, talking to family members and lots of praying I finally learned of ways to give him the attention he was desperately asking for. I tried not to force him to love his little sister instead I tried to make him feel like she needed him so that he would feel like a big brother. And now I can honestly say that I can handle things better and have things under control. Our apartment has never been messier but most of the day I'm able to have 2 happy kids. I've also learned that I MUST nap when they're both sleeping so that I can function better and feel happy when Jordan comes home. All this probably sounds like common sense but believe me there were days that I though I was going to go mad and I just couldn't think right.
I also have to admit that having both of our families so close to us helps A LOT! I don't know how many times I had to call my mom to send my sisters over so they could play with Massey. In just a few weeks from now, we're going to be in Portland and my mom won't be there. I still can't believe it.
Just about a year ago it all seemed like an eternity and it wasn't even a sure thing. But now, it's really happening and even though I'm a bit scared and sad, I'm pretty excited. Just a few weeks ago my relief socitety president came to see the baby and she wasn't the first person to tell me this but the way she said it really hit me. She said that it was important for our family to make this change, she said that moving away from our families was going to strenghten our marriage and I know and feel that she is right. Jordan and I have been taught well and have a firm testimony of the gospel and we know that if we stay close to the church, the Lord will help us no matter where we go.
I'm just glad for all the things that are happening to us right now. M assey and Rebeca are truly blessings in our lives. They are teaching us, especially me, not just about life but about me. I'm starting to discover talents that I didn't even know I had. For example, I always though I hated cooking, because I never really cooked when I lived at home, I was always in school or working, anyways, just the these last couple of days I've noticed that I've been cooking a lot, (sometimes it takes me all day), but I've been trying different recipes which sisters and friends from church have shared with me and I have been enjoying it so much! It makes me feel so happy when Jordan compliments my food and I can tell when Massey likes it too, he says "mmmm...mmm" like a thousand times.
I've also found that I can control the atmosphere of my home and Massey's mood (sometimes) by the way I react to things. Anyway, I can go on and on and on.
I'm just grateful for the opportunity that I have to be at home and see my kids grow and not miss any of it. Maybe someday I'll be able to make cute things like all of my amazing sisters-in-law, who I don't know how they find the time to make all these cute things since sometimes I feel like all I do is play with Massey all day and feed this baby who I'm still nursing in bed, oh, and change poopy diapers...
well here are some more pictures I took of my kids which I though were super cute. Enjoy and thanks for reading.

My dear friend Rachael and her son
Caleb just enjoying the baby